Pre-order of The Kind of Sandstorm You Need to Imagine. You get 2 tracks now (streaming via the free Bandcamp app and also available as a high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more), plus the complete album the moment it’s released.
Woke up feeling okay, but that changed
Add it to the list of things I can’t control
Maybe I need to come to terms
With the fact that I can’t create my own life
Maybe it was always collaborative
A joint construction of a life lived
Maybe it was always collaborative
A joint construction of a life lived
Maybe it was always collaborative
A joint construction of a life lived
Maybe it was always collaborative
A joint construction of a life lived
You always thought
That it was singular effort
Coming forth from your center
But you were wrong
Every time you thought you were too sensitive
You were just getting in tune with a deeper truth
I spent a half hour in the shower
Coming up with my suicide note
I’d post it to every platform
Before going home
Caught up in my dream
Of being better than I have been
While knowing that in your mind
I could be anything
I fear I’m a disgusting fraud
I’ll never overcome my flaws
I can be written off as a loss
No, there is no romance
In being 30 and depressed
Embarrassed looking back at every failed attempt
To be
Anything more
Than another desperate ring
On the cell phone of God
Answering nobody
Oversaturation
Leading to another new sensation
Of pain that will lead
Into psychosis
I fear it’ll always come to this
A new self-destructive bliss
Absolving my responsibilities to you
I am a second away from death
I can feel it in my fingertips
I can touch the bloodshot eyes of the other side
Hold up your worst great unknowns
I will not die again
Hold up your worst great unknowns
I will not fall for it again
Hold your greatest flaws close
I will never blame them on you
That’s a thing this awful world would do
I will never blame it on you
The horrors of this world are true
There’s often very little we can do
But I will never blame it on you
4.
As Above, So Below
5.
The Intransigence of Love
6.
You Can't Go Home Again
7.
I Do Fear Confusion and Accidents
8.
Baby Jeremiah Joins the Pariah Choir
9.
The Market of Compassion
10.
Life, the Universe, and Everything
11.
Victim of Life
12.
Drink Full and Descend
13.
Borrowed Eyes With Which to Sorrow It
about
This album to dedicated to Nanci Whiteley.
credits
releases December 13, 2023
Everything by Elijah.
Special thanks to the Take Carolers.